Girls Just Wanna Have Fun (in the middle of crisis)
The past 4 months have been the most overwhelming and challenging ones of my life.
On January 11th, my husband was paralyzed from the waist down in a construction accident working with my Dad.
On April 1st, my Dad passed away.
I’ve spent every waking moment from January 11th taking care of someone that I love, whether it was my dying father, my newly disabled husband, my kids, my grieving mother & brother, my friendships, trying to stay on top of work stuff, taking care of our home (laundry, dishes, cooking, homework, bills, appointments, tutoring, saxophone lessons, play dates, sickness, etc.) and to say that I’m exhausted and spread thin would be the understatement of a lifetime.
I have also spent the past few weeks clearing tons of furniture and junk out of my garages and our old airbnb apartment to make way for my Mom to move in with us. (I’m extremely grateful that she’s decided to stay with us! Once the dust settles, she should be able to help with Kyle and the kids while I have to work, yay!)
All of this to say that, while i’m very VERY behind on all of my work right now because my life just stopped for several months, my friend Hannah suggested this fun little one hour shoot so that I could carve out a moment to feel like a human again. A living, breathing, flawed, creative human.
I’ve sent so many emails apologizing for lateness, lack of proper communication and general failure that I’m beginning to identify as someone who can’t get things done. This is NOT who I am as a person, but it’s who I’ve had to be at work to survive what has happened in my actual life and family.
So if any of you are looking at these thinking that I’ve forgotten about the projects that are remaining, I haven’t. I work every day in the spare minutes I can find (or the middle of a sleepless night) to get caught up. June is pretty dead for me work wise and my goal is to knock out what I can if things have calmed down some by then.
This whole things reads as such a sob story to me, but the reality is that we are only people. We can only handle so much. I am actively working to find a new normal and create & deliver gorgeous things to people in a timely manner again soon.
Thank you for your patience with me. Many of you have had to show understanding that I would have previously been disgusted by (and still am..) and I am wholly grateful for each of you. Life is hard. Be kind to everyone. You have no idea what anyone is going through on any given day.
Sincerely, and from my Daddy’s desk that’s found it’s home in my office now..
